Almost one and
a half year later.
Now it is almost one and a half
year after our daughter Linda is passed away. The whole day remains
she in my thoughts, by everything I do.Currently I am also at
work again. On my work spot, I am also in the right place with
stories over Linda and when I feel me a day tremendous. Here
I am quite cheerfully with. I have read and/of heard once in
a while other stories.
By many things I think automatic
of our child. When I walk outside, with wind against, for instance.
Linda than said: "Go away wind, I want to grandpa."
Had we sturdy the wind in the back than became there of her site:
"Mommy, mommy, the wind brings us to grandpa." Never
she had it over 'go to grandpa and grandmother '. Grandmother
heard normally with grandpa and she was not necessary separate
Each Sunday we go to the children's
court on the semetary Selwerderhof. It feels good to us to see
/to hear that others also bring or have brought her a visit on
the children's court. Regular we take little stuff with, of which
we know that Linda these would have found very beautiful.
Besides in the store I still looking (unwittingly? ) at amusing
little things for our girl. Besides I hear her as usual say :
"That I have
not at home yet." She never asked directly or she might
have something, but let know well clear that she wants to have
something quite eager. Linda has learned me, not grumble too
much when it is outside bad weather. I can so badly against the
rain. She made me than clear, that the plants, bushes and trees
needs really necessary water By thinking at this, it is less
worse when I am walking through the rain.
In the RONDZENDBRIEF, this is
the periodical of the "Association Parents of a Passed away
Child" is spoken about 'Invisible
Parents.' With that is meant parents that stay behind alone after
the death of their child or children. The outside world can not
see that at them, that they are well reliable parents.
For the outside world I am (still) the mother of Linda. I am
spoken to also on the street when I meet old-classmates of Linda.
People still knows she is/was our child. How this will be over
a number of years, I don't know naturally. I have read somewhere,
that your child is just really gone, when there is spoken no
longer over her or when her name is no longer named. What these
concerned I have faith that Linda always shall stay with us.
That she never ever really will be gone.